Metonymy

I am a troubled man
an aeon in the making of ruin
I've had to withstand
how I stand next to nothing
and go unnoticed,
a monument to failure
occupying the margins of error.

When will "Incredible" and it's synonyms
stop being an antonym?

No matter where you go, there you are.

Help.

The same white day pressing toward.
Stop tomorrow.
Light toward stop.
you've been leaving for far too long.
My dreams only last one second.

My knuckles would turn white.

Anno Domini

Year.

You secretly keep it.

What Happened.

Back to this?

I guess it bothers me most 

that I had to leave.

To come back to a place where I have nothing.

I find it completely odd that I am able to make acquaintance 

with random people on the street in every other place than here.

I loathe life because I have to do something.

99% of the time things that I don't want to do.

I needed that

and I needed you

just the way we were

and I feel appreciated.

Thank you.

Push

...because I'm saving us all from ruin.

And I know my ways are unorthodox.

Damages

They don't fit together.

I'm crushing suns leaving de-calibrated  scales

and hues you force into view. 

They're wrong.  

Retrospect from a delusional man.

Who'd ever know what is real. 

"leap of faith"

Bruised and I don't mind today.

Watching the sun rise just as I watched it set.

Witnessed the cycle.

I have a lot on my mind.

This move and the path I should take.

It can't ever be simple, they're always life changing.

So many things could fail and they are failing, I can see the rust 

building around the turnstile and I'll be trapped once again.

In the room questioning:

Who turned the calendar back,

Who removed the numbers from the clock,

Who decided that I needed downtime?

And now that luna is over there,

where in the first time in years I have something to look forward to.

No false hopes or promises,  no pressure and someone to trust me.

Comfortable silence is all that I've needed.

I am nervous and beside myself.

Following my intuition and I'm not being pushed away for it.

Someone extending their hand to me for once and...

It has taken so much effort in my life for something this simple, for a few days of solace.

I tried and exclaimed one more time with words falling like bricks, the best way I could and it happened.